It’s No Secret

I am not a fan of extreme temperatures; I dislike being cold and hot. That said, I am awaiting Autumn. I love Autumn. Who wouldn’t? The trees and leaves; the smell of cool, crisp air; brewing stew; and back to school!!! Fall is my New Year. I set new goals, organize and revamp my existence. It gives me motivation. Lastly ( but most importantly) Fall fashion. Gasp! A chunky sweater, a pair of boot or booties and even a new scent. My love for Autumn is immense.

So while I am waiting (and shopping…I don’t purchase too many summer pieces. In the summer, I buy items that can extend through the chillier months.) I will share with you my newest purchase.

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I love Steve Madden!!!

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I am really looking forward to many outfit of the day photos. I am also in the process of losing weight. It seems I have a hard time sticking to a routine. Maybe that is due to the fact that I have to play taxi driver for my kids Monday through Friday and drive to Bethlehem, PA from Philadelphia both Saturday and Sunday for class. I guess I forget to care for myself. I actually feel guilty about leaving the kids in the evening to walk/jog/run.

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The was the first night of walking, jogging and sprinting. It was humid so I really didn’t push myself as hard ad I could have. Afterward, I went to the diner. I ordered my favorite…a waffle!! I only ate half and had a frozen drink (that’s a weird combo). Anyway,I was hungry and I was well within my 1200 calories for the day.

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Halfway. This was a walk from Waterworks (Kelly Drive/ Art Museum) to Broad & South. I wasn’t tired at all. I was so motivated. I was supposed to walk to City Hall but kept trekking.

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I made it back to Waterworks in one piece. By that time I was completely exhausted and ready for a salmon salad. (I guess I should’ve taken a pic and shouldn’t have eaten that salad dressing).

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Last night. This was workout number 2.

Earlier that day I did this and OH BOY!!! My shoulders are in pain. Oh! Instead of doing regular jumping jacks, I  variated the movement with high knees. What a workout!

It Really Is INSANE!!!

So I started Insanity maybe two weeks ago and for some reason (maybe the fried chicken and soda that I devoured over the weekend along with the days I acted as if Shaun T was foreign to me) I decided to reset. I was dreading it but I also knew that I didn’t want to embark on the journey of making garments for myself to cover a body that I am not proud of. Don’t get me wrong; there are no self-esteem issues over here but carrying an extra 30-40 lbs is no joy.

INSANITY® Package

I started with the second CD and realized that I am not as far gone as I thought and that I am starting to slim down. Last week, I was even able to put on (and snap) a denim shirt that I had given up on a year ago. It was at that point that I felt like I was beginning to dress like my old self. I still have a long way to go but that was definitely the motivation that I needed.

Subsequently, I started working on pieced for the fashion show mentioned in my previous blog entry and Insanity along with my healthy eating habits were slipping away. I was stressed!! I like working under pressure but EVERYTHING seemed to be going wrong. That was then!

So now, I am sitting at the computer listening the the Insanity music in the background while typing and thinking of a hot shower (moments away) and what to wear today. Another day of Insanity is conquered…59 more to go!!

(I will post pics of my progress at the end of my 30 days).

Commitment

I was awaken out of my sleep to go to the gym this morning. I was not happy but since I have gained over 30 lbs., I reluctantly pushed myself to go. For the majority of the ride I was quiet in my own thoughts. I was questioning as to whether I could do this–whether I could stay committed. I thought about of the great ideas that I never finish. I thought about how I only subscribe to things for a short while. Was I talking myself out of this too?

I had to see a representative from the gym to reinstate my membership. (I hardly used it the last time that I was enrolled for about 2 years). He seemed to have been taking forever and then I started questioning as to whether I should stay.

A short while later, I found myself pedaling on a bike and watching the Wendy Williams Show–due to a very limited selection. I committed to 30 minutes and I am proud to say that I lost 157 calories in the process. I think that this venture will be worth it and I am willing to try–even if the payoff is getting a smoothie from the juice bar when I’m done.